Dreams

2 straight nights in a row, I dreamt about disastrous violin performances. In the first one, I was in NY with the orchestra again. But this time, everyone hated me. I was miserable. We all had to perform on a big stage for Julliard people. I was shaking and trying to calm myself down. I woke up before I went on stage. So it wasn't the performance itself, but the anticipation of it, that left me sweating and unnerved. Then the other one I can't remember anymore. Also last night I had a dream about the new Harry Potter book. In the dream ,it sucked. It was really long and even more boring than the fifth one. Melissa at theleakycauldron.com submitted a news article that was a really bad review of the book and I was very disappointed.

So maybe this is a good sign. Instead of worrying about important things, my most deep and hidden anxieties are stage fright and the quality of Harry Potter 6 - is that it?